Dear Love,
Your suppose to be everyone's favorite feeling. you're suppose to be the one who we can rely on and the one that always gets us by. Your every purpose in this world is to be everlasting. So why do you fail so often? More often than not, people are mad at you. Mostly because they lost you. We get mad when we loose you because face it, without you, life has no meaning. Everyone wants you, but not everyone has you. People will always be chasing after you. some may die before ever feeling like they had you. We put all this blame on you day after day and you take it. And yet you still go out there, trying to deliver your purpose. Some people won't except you and others become completely obsessed with you. However, i think everyone can agree that they can't live with out you.
Dear Heroin,
You took away someone close to me. Some who i thought would never get caught up in you. She had it all, brains beauty, and most of all, a future. Then you came along and transformed her into an alter ego. Some one who is tearing her family apart. Its been almost seven years now and you won't go away. Her family has tried everything they can, cried so much, there are no more tears to cry. Its like she doesn't exist in the family anymore. She is just an extra body at family events. She talks, but we know its not her speaking. you have completely taken over her mind and body. There is very little Erin in there anymore. So little that she can't see how bad things have gotten. Now the whole family is just waiting for that phone call saying you completely took over and Erin is dead.
Revelation
When the tears just wouldn’t stop,
You collected them.
When I gave up on myself,
You took over.
When I was in darkness,
You gave me light.
When I thought it was the end,
You started a new beginning.
You made me realize not to give up,
It was just a fall.
That things don’t always end
So happy after all.
But that it’s okay
I will be alright.
I shouldn’t back off,
Without a fight.
I did what I could,
With what I had.
I tried till the end
Even when it was real bad.
But it’s over now
I’ve moved on.
I can look back
And know it’s all gone.
I have a new life
Where I am not scared,
I can be successful
And fully prepared!
“Summer Friend”
I wake up with the window open
The summer breeze pulling at my hair
I hear the birds singing
The air so fresh
I see flowers blooming
The trees full with leaves
The little children playing in their yards
What a beautiful summer day!
Then I see you
The brightness of my day.
You make the sun brighter,
The birds sing magnificently
The children happier than before
You are the beauty of the flowers,
You couldn’t be a better friend
You are always making me smile and laugh
You let me know you care
You listen to me
I like the fact of knowing I have a friend by my side
Listening
Caring
Smiling
Thank you Friend.
Love
When you see the person,
Love stings you like a bee.
You just want to hold onto that person forever.
When you don’t want anything to go wrong,
Something does.
You find out a secret,
A secret he didn’t tell you.
Why?
How?
How could he do this to me?
Then your hope of loves fades.
You feel like you never want to love again.
A last time you ask yourself,
Why?
How?
You will never know,
Perhaps you weren't meant to.
Why women hide the fact that they’re mad, from men
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This is an all too common situation. It’s about time the men learn why we say we are not mad when we really are. Reason #1 the minute we admit we are mad we immediately know that the man is going to think our reason for being mad is stupid. Although it may seem so little and insignificant to you, we have feelings about every moment and feeling needs to be recognized with us. Believe it or not, we KNOW when the thing we are mad at is stupid. But WE CAN'T HELP IT! We already have this built up situation in our heads and when it turns out differently we become disappointed. The littlest thing becomes such a big deal. We try to not fight about this but the man always keeps pushing because he KNOWS that the woman is mad but he doesn’t want to admit he knows and we don’t want to admit why we are mad because we will feel stupid for being mad at something so little. Here is a classic example of how this little pre fight goes:
MAN (just minutes before scheduled event) “babe I don’t feel like going out tonight.”
WOMAN “WHAT? WHY?”
MAN “I just don’t feel good and besides there is a game on tonight”
WOMAN “So even after I have been planning for this whole night for everyone to go out, you don’t want to go anymore?”
MAN: “ babe I just don’t feel good. You have all of your friend’s babe. You will be fine”
WOMAN: “okay fine. Stay in.”
MAN “ are you mad at me ?”
WOMAN “ Nope.”
MAN “are you sure?”
WOMAN “ Yup”
MAN “ are you really sure?”
Now let me just stop right here.
If it ends with a p, or the response is “sure” , the results aren’t good.
MAN if you feel the need to ask more than once if we are fine, CLEARLY, WE ARE NOT FINE!!! That’s just common sense. What men don’t realize is that women don’t plan group events spontaneously. Even if it seems like it comes out like that. We plan our moves and set events up in our heads that can happen. So when you cancel last minute, you have hurt our feelings so hard. So next time you want to continuously ask if we are sure we are not mad at you. Just know, that yes we are. Unless you are getting a “baby im not mad at you I love you, (sealed with a kiss) , Then YUP you guessed it. We are mad. We are pissed that you don’t care enough to come up with, first of all, a better excuse, second of all, a back up plan.
Example of back up plan:
“baby I’m so sorry to spring this on you last minute but I really don’t feel like going out tonight. I promise I will make it up to you in my own special way! Please don’t be mad at me.”
Yes WOMAN will still be disappointed. However she is way more likely to get over it faster and have it not ruin her perfectly planned night!!!
Just saying…..
*My parallel Universe*
As I step into the shower, a sense of relief covers me like a blanket. This is the one place I can completely unwind. Just stand there head down, back arched and no one can talk to me. I turn on the water and turn the dial all the way over the hot side. It doesn’t take long before I can feel the steaming hot water on my skin and feel the burn. A burn that should sting but instead relieves me and reminds me how alive I am. As the water runs I can literally feel the failures, hope, dreams, goals, wash off of me. It’s a literal cleanse for me, of everything. This is a place where I can just let it all out. No hiding, no real expression. Just me, my thoughts and the burning water. I can express emotions freely without anyone’s judgment but my own. Which, I can take. I can cry, laugh, and ponder for endless minutes about life. Although, I mostly just stand there with no reaction to anything around me as I let my hair wash over my face and drip onto my body. This is my escape, my parallel universe. I sometimes wish I could be in there all day. So I wouldn’t have to face the real world. Unfortunately, this feeling for me is a short lived one every day. After several minutes, I know that I need to turn off the water, partly because I am wasting it and partly because I am drenching the floor. As I shut off the water, I turn the dial slowly by the cold water side. Just to get a flinch of shock into my body. I now stand there in the shower to drip dry as I ponder how long I will stand there before I get out. After what seems like only minutes, my senses come back to me and I peel the shower curtain off the shower walls. I step back into reality, wrap a towel around me, and receive the instant message from my body that I was not ready to get out.
*Dunkin Donuts*
So you’re in dunkin donuts, there is a line out the door, but you need your coffee so you decide to wait. You decide the clerk behind the counter is a moron. They seem to be messing up orders and cannot count out the change fast enough. As your waiting, you start anticipating how wrong your order is going to be. In your head you go over how you can say what you want so this “idiot” gets it right the first time. Finally, it’s your turn to order, “Medium coffee cream and two equals” the clerk looks at you like she’s seen a ghost, leaving you to believe your order will certainly be wrong. She turns around and puts your coffee together. She hands it to you and when you open the lid, it’s still black. “Where’s the cream? Really you forgot the cream? What’s your problem? It’s not that hard to take a coffee order.” You shout. Tears fall immediately from her face. She apologizes and remakes your coffee. You feel no sympathy because let’s face it, you’re in a rush, she should be able to do her job and you don’t have time for this. You leave and she has to face about 100 more jerks like you for the rest of her shift.
What you didn’t think of is what her day has been like. How do you know she didn’t just say good bye to her son going off to Iraq the day before, or her husband served her with divorce papers this morning before she left. What if her mom just passed away and still can’t quite get back into her routine. Or she just got the news that someone in her family just died? Or what if the simple fact is that it’s been one of those days where you can’t quite hold on to anything and you stubbed your toe, got pulled over for speeding because your running late and she just has so much on her mind that she made a mistake with your coffee and she’s a little off today. Don’t we all have those days?
The point is, next time you get ready to scream at the woman from dunkin donuts, beep your horn to the person not paying attention, or flip out on someone because they didn’t do something fast enough, just think about what their day could have been like today. They could be having the worst day of their life and they just need a break today. Instead, you lost it because you’re too impatient to care about anyone else’s problems but your own. Even if none of those things happened and someone is just in a bad mood, you putting a smile on your face and saying “hey it’s okay everyone has a bad day.” That could be the one thing they needed to hear to get through today and realize it’s going to be okay.
